If you have to convince yourself that something isn’t boring, there’s a very good chance it is. This is the part we don’t like to admit, because it immediately sounds like we’ve set something up wrong. But it’s usually just the simple truth.
I don’t mean bills and emails, because there are no surprises. I mean another thing. Things that showed themselves without a plan, without needing to justify themselves. The things you slot into your day now need permission to exist
The other day, I found myself wondering if going for a walk “made sense.” At this point, it seemed completely normal. It was only later that it hit me how weird it is to test whether you can do something that feels good. Like, there’s a committee that approves these things, and I apparently missed the meeting.
And somewhere in there, change happens — not dramatic, not sudden, more like a quiet redirection — and you become a reasonable person. Who knows his priorities, doesn’t spread himself, doesn’t waste time, keeps everything under control.
Which is definitely good.
I mean… it is. probably
Except it’s also a little suspicious, because the “nonsense” you cut out is the only thing that didn’t make you want to climb the wall.
And then you create a day that makes sense from start to finish. Everything is in place, everything is moving. You manage to remove something without a clear result — and you’re left with that one question you don’t ask out loud.
Why is something not particularly interesting to me anymore?
Not bad, not unbearable, just… like watching something you’ve already seen. You know how it ends, but you keep watching because you’ve already started
Not that you don’t know what fun feels like. You move it to later — to the moment when you’re done, when you have time, when you’re less tired, more focused, a better version of yourself. Which sounds reasonable, but like a plan that had no actual date, another “we’ll see.”
And then you get used to work. And it works, it really does – you finish things, you move on, you keep going. It’s just that none of this is something you can’t wait to do.
And that’s the part that stings quietly. Not because it’s terrible, but because it’s persistent – so you easily ignore it, like a notification you want to check later and then never open.
Because the problem isn’t that things are hard – we all know that. It’s that nothing is the least bit interesting, so everything becomes something—even the things you do out of pure curiosity.
And of course, you need a break from your own life. Which sounds dramatic until you realize you’ve already scheduled one — you call it something else and pretend that’s enough.
You don’t have to change everything right away. No one actually does it this way.
But you can stop waiting for everything to be over before you find something interesting yourself.
Because if you wait for that moment, there’s a good chance you’ll become the person who gets everything done.
And then you sat down.
And thought… ok, now what.
